I've been facing massive amount of stress lately...and I don't know why.
I've been quick to snap at people, and even quicker to let myself get overwhelmed, which isn't entirely like me (only somewhat like me).
I guess I just don't feel like there are enough hours in the day, enough days in the week, and enough time for me to do what I want without falling into a huge amount of financial debt. I see my credit card balance higher than ever, and all I'm using it for is my monthly parking and to gas up felix (my car).
I'm in a hard situation because no one truly understands the stress I'm under. Rini (my mom) has no idea what I'm going through. She is constantly pressuring me to pick up more shifts at old navy so I can make more money, when some times all I wanna do is have 1 out of the 7 days off in a week. And CB has trouble understanding too, because to him I am financially stable, but to me I just don't know which end is up.
I'm hoping that life slows down, but I can't help but wonder how much it will speed up. I'm over tired, over worked, and my eyes hurt. I don't have time to read for class, but LUCKILY I'm good at making it seem like I have (that will probably drop out soon).
I just want to go apple picking, enjoy fall...and have a job. I can't wait until May.
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