Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Life has been going fast...

...but I've luckily been finding time to enjoy some things!


  • On Saturday, we celebrated Brady's 4th birthday. I can't even believe God blessed us with this little guy 4 years ago. I love him more than words can say. He grown from a little baby to a smart, well behaved little boy. Seriously, I don't know what I'd do without him, he brings me so much joy. (Along with his little bro riley)



 


  • Chris and I have been falling asleep REALLY early lately. On any given Monday/Wednesday night, you will find the two of us fast asleep on the couches in my living room around 10 pm. We are both adjusting to life, CB with his job (going from working afternoons and nights at unos to work 7:30-4 at his new gig) and me with school, work and my fellowship. By the end of the day we are both exhausted, but it is good that we get to spend time with each other at least 3 times a week. I'm hoping it continues to work out like this as in the fall Chris plans to start grad school, which will mean long work days followed by long nights of class, but hopefully by then I will be working and in a routine. 
  • We try to do fun things when we can. A few weeks ago we did the Diamond Dash in Boston, a scavenger hunt around the city for a diamond ring. We didn't win. This week we are doing the Chevy Sonic Adventure. Same idea, only this time you get a car! We also went apple picking and have been hanging out with friends whenever we can.
Anyone close to me knows that in July we lost CB's mom very unexpectedly to a blood clot that traveled to her lungs. It was a really hard time for him and his family, and for all of us who knew her. I was really lucky to have known her for the 2ish years that I did. She was so funny and cared SO much about CB and his sister MB. She took me on their family trip to Puerto Rico last year, and I'm so grateful I got to know her on that trip. Sometimes I think about passing and either a.) can't believe it really happened or b.) just cry. I really miss her and sometimes I feel like its selfish that I'm upset, but I am also sad for CB, as he deals with this daily. She was excited that I was starting grad school, and I wish she could be there to see me finish, but sometimes I think about her watching over us, drinking from a never-ending supply of her favorite cupcake wine, watching the real housewives and just laughing. I know this brings somewhat of a damper on my post, but I can't help but think that it would be a discredit not to mention this, as her death has really caused me to think twice about everything I do, and has helped me along in my grad school work.

Thats all for now. Time to do some work, paper due tomorrow pm. Only 207 days until graduation.




Tuesday, October 18, 2011

I'm siiiiick (thats 5 i's, for all those full house fans out there)

I think I'm sick...it was inevitable. At the rate I'm going with working and school and interning I knew this would happen. Last night I fell asleep at 8:30 which is early for me, and I had a real hard time getting myself up this morning.

So I just went to the bathroom and noticed that my face is bright red and I feel hot...then cold...then hot.

Thus, I think I'm getting sick. I ran to CVS for orange juice...come on vitamin c...work your magic!

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Come on little zoloft, you can do it...

I've been facing massive amount of stress lately...and I don't know why.

I've been quick to snap at people, and even quicker to let myself get overwhelmed, which isn't entirely like me (only somewhat like me).

I guess I just don't feel like there are enough hours in the day, enough days in the week, and enough time for me to do what I want without falling into a huge amount of financial debt. I see my credit card balance higher than ever, and all I'm using it for is my monthly parking and to gas up felix (my car).

I'm in a hard situation because no one truly understands the stress I'm under. Rini (my mom) has no idea what I'm going through. She is constantly pressuring me to pick up more shifts at old navy so I can make more money, when some times all I wanna do is have 1 out of the 7 days off in a week. And CB has trouble understanding too, because to him I am financially stable, but to me I just don't know which end is up.

I'm hoping that life slows down, but I can't help but wonder how much it will speed up. I'm over tired, over worked, and my eyes hurt. I don't have time to read for class, but LUCKILY I'm good at making it seem like I have (that will probably drop out soon).

I just want to go apple picking, enjoy fall...and have a job. I can't wait until May.